Today was Xavier bday party. i hated every moment i was there but the baby had fun and thats all that matters. so i guess we are moving to kansas in about a month. when scott left he said i love you which made me melt. he hasnt sad that for a while. i dont get if he loves me then why is he going back home to her. i'll write more later i'm watching the notebook and going to put the baby to bed.
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confused
Scott thought i looked cute today cuz i knew he was coming over lol. No sorry! he was almost crying when he left and he wouldn't tell me why. he just said he would be fine. i hate when he hides stuff from me. i know part of the reason why he has been upset but he wouldnt get that upset about that when he is leaving here. That reminds me i forgot about the lemonade he bought me. i think i left it in the freezer.
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blah
I am so tired. the baby didn't let me sleep at all. Scott went back to the hospital last night. Roger called me from the hospital and told me what was going on. Scott had to get a cat-scan. he had a concussion, something to do with allergies and something else.
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sleepy
Scott needed my help so i had to do a couple of things for him. he is supposed to be back over later. he wont tell me why he went to the hospital. he made up some bullshit that he has an incurable disease. he is so confusing. he needs to hurry up and make up his mind before i change mine.
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okay
So last night Scott calls me and tells me he is in the hospital but wont tell me why. so i dont know if he was there because he was sick or someone else was. i know Roger was with him and that's pretty much it. i hate when he does stuff like that cuz then i cant sleep and he was probably fine. with my luck he was there because of that bitch.
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tired
So the hubby and i have been talking on the phone and he came over. he said he would be back in a little while. i hate when he says he will be back cuz then i wait and sometimes he doesnt show up. then the next time i see him or talk to him i want to yell.
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cheerful
She moved out!!!! I hope for good. Scott called a couple of minutes ago telling me that she moved and asked if i wanted to move next month to Kansas. I'm so excited i hope she doesnt change her mind and come back. he said he would be over in a bit.
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excited
This weekend has been boring. i have done nothing be sides grocery shop with scott and roger yesterday. which was kinda werid at first scott wanted me to hold his arm then push the cart with him i didnt really hold it for to long roger start pushing it to with us it was kinda funny. then of course scott has to find a girl that works there and flirt with her almost the whole time. and it didnt really help that she was following us.
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bored
Scott just stopped by on his lunch break. i didn't even know he was working lol. i hate when the baby cries when scott leaves. the baby just looks at the door screaming daddy. he said he would be back later. he probably won't.
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bored
Just went shopping with Scott and Roger. They are like to little kids when they are together. Scott always has to flirt with every girl. it makes me think if he did that shit when we were together. i'm sure he is pissed at me i wouldnt kiss him good night the way he wanted me to. i'm pissed at him and he knows why, i think roger even knows. roger knew when we were at the store that i was pissed and just wanted to be left alone. i just hate games guys play. i am gonna try to sleep now.
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pissed off
He drives me crazy. Maybe one day he will start listening to me.
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annoyed
Scott and Roger came by this morning to pick up one of the Xaviers only outfits to take back so he can play poker. i have been bored all fucking day and i still am. now i am waiting for scott to call.
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bored
He is really something else. Scott and roger came over a little while ago to borrow something and to say hi and get a kiss. He drives me crazy!!!
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shocked
How the fuck am i screwing things up between us? i'm not the one with someone else. I'M the one that sits at my mothers house pregnant and taking care of our son while he is out having fun with his friends. he came over just to tell me thanks for making him lose his job. it's not my fault he lost his job. i gave him all of my fucken money. i am sick of being so stupid and just waiting for him to figure things out. have fun with an attention whore that is exactly like you. Even your boobs are the same size. He is so full of shit telling my that he has been calling all day. trust me i have the phone with all day. i doubt he even lost his job. he gets pissed off when i call him a lier. maybe if he stopped lying then i would stop calling him a liar.
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angry
I hate waiting for people to call back. i'm guessing roger went to work and he has the phone or Scott isn't home. i will be super pissed if he doesn't call or come over today.
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tired
Last night Scott came over around 9 asked me to do him a favor so i did. then around midnight i get a phone call it was scott and roger then they came and got me, then they came again at almost 2. So i didnt sleep very well. Today is the 5th the first day me and scott went out. he better come over or call. i have to call him any way cuz the baby needs baby wipes.
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sleepy
i was bored so i decided to take the bus to walmart but then scott called while i was on the bus and told me to get off and drove me. then he took me home but of course he needed money. he is supposed to come back later and pay me back. i'm sure taunya is going crazy right now not knowing where scott is. i know i would be.
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good
We had court this morning and we didn't go lol. i didn't think we would since we have been talking about getting back together. But he came and picked me up we messed around in his car at McDonald's then drove around and talked. now he is at the poker room hopefully winning me some money.
He said he is teaching me a very long lesson . i hope he knows that when his bitch leaves she needs to take her dog with her. i loving hearing how much he misses me. i guess he accidentally told roger yesterday that he misses me. Oh and i love hearing that he feels bad doing stuff without me like movie night.
He said he is teaching me a very long lesson . i hope he knows that when his bitch leaves she needs to take her dog with her. i loving hearing how much he misses me. i guess he accidentally told roger yesterday that he misses me. Oh and i love hearing that he feels bad doing stuff without me like movie night.
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cheerful
Scott dropped of the baby about two hours ago and of course asked for his letter lol. He said lately he feels like he doesnt want to be with her. i swear if he is fucking with me i never want to see his face again. if he is going to do it, it better be soon. I hate waiting.
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cheerful
Scott came and got the baby. he was upset that i didnt write him a letter. he said he isnt happy with taunya and that if i did anything he needs to know so that he can forgive me. i'm not sure if that means that he wants to get back together but i hope it does. if we do i know i am gonna get shit from everyone but i dont give a fuck i love him he makes me happy and i dont ever want to lose him again.
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ecstatic
